Today has really been a long day. We went out today and it was so hot. On top of that 
my neighbor just pissed me the hell off. I started hanging out with her, because when 
her daughter was here during the school year, she would play with my daughter. Now 
that it is summer, her daughter is at her grandparents and now I just mainly hang 
with the lady, because most of the time, I am bored. Today, she really pissed me off. 
She knows the whole situation with my daughter's father and she said that my family 
and I are raising my daughter the wrong way. She is from China and we are from the 
Philippines. She said, since the father is not in the baby's life, I should of had an 
abortion. She said, from where she comes from, people will talk about you, if you 
have a baby with no father. She has two kids and she is married, but she only sees 
her kids once a month, because her parents are the ones with the kids, ever since 
they were born. I told her, that I am always with my child since she was born and her 
answer, is that it does not mean shit, because she does not have a father. That just 
pissed me off. I told her, that a lot of people do not have both parents and they turn 
out ok. In the begining, yea I did not like it either, but there is really nothing I 
can do about it. My baby has my father and my brother for her and if her father is 
not going to be there for her, then that is fine. I think, my situation is better 
then hers, because someday, when my child ask me how old was she when she started 
walking, or when did she get her first tooth, or what was her first word, I can 
answer my child, because I was always there for her, but when her child asks her 
those kinds of things, she would not be able to answer her at all. She feels, 
that since I am going to tell my child that it is ok that her father is not 
around, because I am always here for her and that her uncle and her grandfather 
is here for her, that when she grows up, she will not have a father for her child 
too. That shit just pissed me off. People like her, are just ignorant. I just 
did not want to be rude, but I could of told her, that when her kids grow up, 
they will feel that it is ok to have someone else raise you child, as long as 
you go see them once in a while. She also feels, that me suing her father for 
hild support is the wrong thing, because then the father would take revenge on 
me and maybe kill me or something. I told her, that I know my child's father 
better then anyone and she keeps telling me, that I do not know him and that I 
should be sacred. There is nothing for me to be sacred about. One day, she will 
see when her child asks her, why she was never there for her. My child will say, 
that even though she does not have a father in her life, her mother was always 
there for her and did everything she could for her. Even though a child has both 
parents, but they are not there for them, then what good are the parents. 
It would be the same as not having any parents. She keeps insisting, that I 
should of had an abortion, since there is no father. Ever since I was little, 
I was always 0.0.against abortion. It is a sin in God's eyes and the baby is 
innocent and does not deserve it. She sees it as, the baby is only one month and 
it is just a drop of blood. Still. I would not do it. She should of had an 
abortion, since she was not going to be there for her kids. If I was to tell her 
that, I bet she would of been pissed. People are just too ignorant.